It’s been awhile since you’ve heard from me. My last blog entry was written just after I learned the sex of my baby (his unofficial name: Karl Josef Benjamin). I can tell you that some things about this pregnancy haven’t changed at all. I cannot sleep well most nights because I am unable to find a right position that is comfortable for more than an hour. Most days, by morning, I am faced with the ever-increasing weight in the middle part of my body. This early morning (6am for goodness’ sake!), my baby had a serious issue. He’s kicking and jerking and punching (rolling and galloping, I don’t know what)… much much stronger than he used to. I can’t figure out his problem; his own mother, confused. So once again, my dozing moment has been interrupted.
Today I am contemplating if I am ready to be done with this pregnancy and meet my son. Everything from the practical (buying the baby’s stuff) to the more cerebral and emotional aspects. And I am thinking of our readiness as individuals - myself, papa A, and our families.
For myself, I can only say that I am a bit scared. Reality hits me suddenly. I worry so much about almost everything (I attribute this to the MANY articles I read on the internet, information overload I guess). Will the baby be healthy? Will he have all 10 fingers and 10 toes? Will I ever fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes again? (sayang naman kasi hehe) How much weight will I gain? Will this pregnancy ruin my very cute and perky boobs? (no violent reaction pls!) Will having a baby end my badminton life? How about my out-of-town escapades? Will I have a healthy complication-free delivery? Will I poo-poo during the delivery? How much is the delivery really going to HURT? Can I manage a career and motherhood? Will I experience postpartum depression? Will I be able to breastfeed my baby? What if my baby has birth defects? Will I be a good mother? And most importantly, I am so so scared about joining the ranks of new ideal mommies with their "cutesy cutesy hello bebe, gooh gooh, gaaah gaah" language. How could I possibly fit in?! Tell me.
The questions and worries are endless, although experts say that these are all normal. OK fine. Inhale… exhale… Breathe in… breathe out. One day, one moment at a time.
Relax. One crisis at a time, that’s the right idea.
As for sleeping, maybe you want to try aromatherapy to make sleeping a lot easier and more comfortable.
If you do so, make sure you research if the oils you’ll be using are baby-friendly first.
My .02
Greg
Posted by Greg at April 22, 2008, 12:22 pmFrom Bob Marley’s Three Little Birds
Rise up this morning
smiled with the rising sun
three little birds
pitch by my door step
singing sweet songs
of melodies pure and true
saying, this is my message to you:
don’t worry about a thing
cause every little thing is gonna be alright
don’t worry about a thing
every little thing is gonna be alright…
kumareng grace, i totally agree. prayer lang katapat ng worries ko na to. tnx!
greg, tnx for the advise. arometherapy sounds relaxing.
thehusband, bob marley is also one of aris’s fave singers. i think we have a copy of that song. tnx for reminding. life is good
You need not worry too much. It will come to you. I can’t really say for sure but you’ll know what to do when the time comes. Sabi mo nga, practice makes perfect.
Ganon talaga, you’ll never ever run out of fears. That’s just the start of it all, promise. Next what-ifs mo will be, what if the baby falls off the bed? What if I drop the baby? What if, what, walang katapusan. But just believe that life right now is how it’s supposed to be ad everything will fall into place. : )
Posted by Tricia at April 29, 2008, 11:11 amDon’t think too much. Enjoy your pregnancy right now so that when baby Karl Josef Benjamin grows up, you can tell him how much he kicked and jerked and punched you. You can tell him how much he kept you awake late at night. You can tell him the time when you were closest to him. How you felt him alive. Think of how much you love him.
Tsaka tuturuan natin siyang mag badminton.
i agree with you all. it’s better to relax and think positive during this time para maganda ang vibes na makuha ni baby. tnx guys! ayaw ko na magbabasa ng mga birth stories… nakakapraning hehe..
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Daming fears…daming questions…ganyan talaga…ako nun tinatanung ko pa sa sarili ko kung gigising pako after the general anesthesia! he! he!
Posted by kumareng grace at April 21, 2008, 8:37 pmBut all those questions will only be answer after your son comes out…dun mo malalaman isa isa ang sagot sa mga taning mo.
With regard to your worries…di makatulong ang basa ng basa ng maraming info…tama ka, mao-overload ka ng info. What’s the best thing to do? PRAY!